Impulses has played such an enormous part of my life for so long, and not solely because most of the story is based on fact and my own personal experiences. But because it aided me when I was drowning in regrets and resentments. It freed me.
Knowing that there are fans out there of Samantha and Hayden, knowing that their strength and love, along with their trials and heartbreak has touched your hearts...I truly have no words for that.
It was my intent to leave Samantha and Hayden happily in their bubble, in each other's arms. But a few of my dearest readers wasn't so thrilled with that idea. They wanted more.
Well, what sort of person would I be to withhold a possible furthering of a truly amazing love story.
For my dear readers, this is for you.
Much love, and I hope you enjoy,
V.L. xxx
Impulses: Tainted Beginnings
Copyright 2014 V.L. Brock
Samantha
It seems as
though I have only slept a few measly hours as the pull of dawn claws me back
to reality in the form of beams of sunlight searing through the panoramic
window along my left. The glass seemingly intensifies the heat of the warming
July, San Francisco sun.
Undesired
and feeling relatively premature, my eyelids flutter open. Even after all this
time, we still refuse to draw the blinds before bed. The silver radiance of the
moon’s glow caressing your flesh as well as your partner’s hands and body, the
shadows cast upon the surrounding walls bearing witness and mimicking the
unhurried chase of release as we made love all night long, heightens euphoria
for us.
It always
has.
I feel the
tension leave my body as I stretch-out my overused muscles. However, the moment
is short-lived; tension overpowers my body and mind. Kicked to the foot of the
bed is the comforter, the white sheet lays wrinkled, cold and bare of his body.
“Hayden?” I
call, feeling very much alert in my just awoken state. I push myself up so I’m
sitting in the middle of the vast leather sleigh bed, clutching the comforter
tightly around my body as if it will armor me from my anxious moment.
Prospering
unease mocks me when I am answered only with silence. My immediate thought upon
waking is: has he had another nightmare? The
countless dreams Hayden had trudged through, the countless gut-wrenching,
nerve-wracking instincts which I have endured for him and never came to truly
understand, are now justifiable and rational, since falling as prey to my own
troublesome subconscious only three months ago…
****
We were
sitting at our usual table in the restaurant which held many memories for us.
It was the walls of 1300 where Hayden and I had begun our journey of change. It
was surrounded by the wooden paneled walls and the golden ambiance where
realization was met, where we laid our cards, both good and bad, upon the table
and saw to it that we could finally bring each other what we never considered we
deserved. Love and happiness. Unknowingly, we became each other’s savior and
for the first time in our lives, we could see a future full of adventures and
wondrous memories.
So there we
were, with Hayden’s warm, tender hands eclipsing my own in the heart of the
table as we waited for our entrees. I was silent. I was so far removed from the
company I was in, as my thoughts and looming disappointment crushed me once
again from the inside out, for the fifth time in a row.
I didn't
know how much more I could take.
“Beautiful,”
he beckoned in his usual, husky and cajoling tone. Yet all I wanted was to
retreat back into my shell and befall to the sorrow I carried in a heavy heart.
Lost to my thoughts, I saw Hayden in the periphery of my vision cocking his
head into my line of sight. The chocolate curl loosened and fell onto his brow.
“Samantha.”
“Hmm…”
His chest
expanded on his deep inhalation, his dress shirt tightened across his chest,
carefully wrenching at the buttons. “It will happen eventually, beautiful. You
heard what the doctor told us, it can take months to be successful.” Despite
his dark, hypnotic eyes studying me with profound hope and reassurance, I
couldn't reflect his optimism. I wanted to. But I couldn't find the shard of
energy to fulfill that desire.
“I know.”
This was a
conversation which was becoming as ritualistic as my morning coffee. That
dreaded day of the month would come and shatter every hope and wish I had
amassed in the short prior weeks. Then it would begin again. Three full weeks
of hopes and anticipation, as we tried repeatedly to give each other what we
were so desperate to have, what we were desperate to hold and love, slain
within that moment of reality when we discovered we were once again
unsuccessful.
The
betrayal of tears in my eyes displayed my sorrow, yet the wistful smile I could
feel gradually breaking free was clouded, as my eyes trailed over Hayden’s
shoulder to the bar. When he asked what was wrong as I narrowed my eyes, I was
already making my attempt to push myself free of the table.
“What the
fuck is she doing here?”
“Who?” he
gasped before turning in the seat.
“I warned
her once, Hayden, and trust me, I meant every single word. She’s chosen the
wrong day to piss me off.” My words came rapid and shaking with adrenaline. My
heart echoed in the pit of my stomach, my entire body trembled as the woman
donning a tight red miniskirt and heels tossed her blond streaked hair behind
her shoulder.
That day I
felt I had nothing to lose. I was wrong.
“Leave it,
Samantha,” his words sought to urge a splinter of rationalization through my
fury. The calming squeeze of his hand upon my shoulder halted my intention to break
away from our intimate table, and crush her under my foot like the cockroach
she is. “She hasn't seen u…” his voice lost sound as we watched on like some
emotional masochists, as an equally familiar man with a slanted nose and
glinting hoop ring through his dark eyebrow, coiled his arm around her waist
and kissed her cheek.
“What the
fuck? Is that…?”
Unsure if I
was completely thrown by Addison and Dominic’s display, or for the second time
in my life, I was completely seized by fear, we simply remained sitting
stock-still. The idea of two people who hated Hayden and me, alongside what we
have, the same people who attempted to draw an end to our relationship, rendezvousing,
bred my fear and concern. Although in the distant part of my mind, the part
where my logic resided at that point in time, was telling me that two
vindictive people could find a halfhearted warmth in each other’s arms, one equaling
nothing more than what they distributed for months and years on end, upon
another, was struck to a mere whisper.
At that
point, I was introduced to my own paranoia yelling at me about a future threat,
one which would take form and begin to haunt my dreams from that moment on.
Rome didn't
fall in a day.
****
Shaking the
thought from my head with a degree of uncertainty, I call him again. “Honey?”
Still, the only voice to answer is that of my own echo.
Trembling
with trepidation, I kick the silk adorned comforter to the leather footboard of
the bed, and step into my slippers. As I arise, I hastily slip on my satin
robe, knotting the tie around my waist before staggering warily down the once
barren hallway, which is now a mosaic of hanging photos of us smiling and
staring into picturesque backgrounds on some of our most memorable journeys
over the past year, to find my husband.
The central
poster-size print acts as the focal point. I smile as my fingers absentmindedly
trace the mirrored frame holding the picture of Hayden on bended knee in the riveting
grounds of the where we pledged our love for one another, and he in turn shared
his name. My right foot is set on his thigh, the somewhat lengthy white and red
train of my gown outspread flawlessly over the lawn. The front is hiked up,
exposing my leg and garter. I’m looking down on him from his position, my
finger nestled underneath his chin, coaxing him to look back up at me as his
hands caress the silk white lacy-top stocking. Locking our eyes, the elation
and desire consuming our gaze would've been enough to set fire to the photographer’s
film. Thank God for memory cards.
At times, I
like to just stand and stare at this one memory, a time where sex was acted upon
impulse, where there was no other intention than that of pleasure, intimacy and
quenching an unquenchable desire. Now, there was a more coveted goal.
“Hayden,
are you here?” I repeat once more as I approach the kitchen along my left and
crane my head around the archway. With the exception of a note lying on the
granite island, I am greeted by an empty, pristine area. A hefty sigh is ousted
with an unimpressed shake of my head as I make my way slowly into the center.
Only the gentle tapping of my slippers against the black tiling cuts through my
momentary contemplation. Hayden has been working himself into a stupor for
weeks on this one particular case, which he won’t shed any light upon. With
Brody now under a fixed position at Wentworth and Associates, I thought Hayden’s
workload would have lessened. How wrong was I?
Cursing
silently as I reach for the note, I anticipate the chances of a day, which had
been organized for some weeks, and meant solely for us, has now been railroaded
with the decision of Hayden going into work anyway. I begin to read:
Good morning my Queen.
Each and every day I
wake before you and spend the best part of dawn just watching you. The twitches
of your nose, the wrinkling of your brow, and those little displeasing groans
are the highlight of my morning.
Anyhow, as promised, I
haven’t gone into work. My wife did a mighty fine job last night of expelling
every coherent brain cell from my head, something which I fear would be frowned
upon in my profession.
I've had to run a few
errands, but I’m guessing by the time you've woken and read this, I’m most
probably already on my way back to you…
I’m pulled away from my letter by strong,
familiar arms snaking their way around my waist, and the intoxicating scent of
Dior, enveloping me in a fashion that causes my pelvic muscles to quiver and my
stomach tightening. Goosebumps coat my flesh as they always do when he is near.
“Sleeping Beauty awakens,” he purrs amongst my
tresses into the curve of my ear. My eyes close, my head tips back onto his
chest as the slight growl in the undertone of his voice at his greeting, sends
me spiraling into the pits of unadulterated need and craving.
My God, he drives me crazy.
“Sleeping Beauty awoke to an empty bed and had
to ward off a panic attack,” I force myself to form words, drawing an end to my
early morning breathlessness. In his loving clutch, I turn around to face him
and set my hands atop his upper arms.
His rich chocolate pools shimmer with wry amusement
as he gazes down on me, the corners of his mouth twitches when an innocent yet
shrewd smile kisses his lips. “She still worries about me,” he sighs, yet his
tone poses it as a question.
Removing my arm from his bicep, I slowly raise
it and push back his sexy as Hell errant lock which is curled on his forehead,
before my touch glides down the curve of his jaw. Soft rustling sounds as my
palm caresses his coarse stubble. “I’m always worrying about you, you know
that. I can’t shake the thought that…”
“Sshh…” tender hands push into my hair, his
gaze never failing to make me weak in the knees; all the while my stomach knots
itself at the terrifying forethought of losing him, a thought I finally gave
voice to and made known to him only a few weeks ago, after struggling and
failing to battle it myself. I've lost him so many times to my fears as they
manifested in slumber. A permanent loss, one never to be returned as the
vindictive faces of our past tore us apart, and lurked behind headstones as I
laid my husband, and what we fought so hard for, to rest.
Tears warm my cheeks and burn my eyes. His
thumb brushes them aside before tracing the salted moisture over my lips.
Lowering his head, the curl unbinds and falls forward again. Lips which I
cannot live without are upon me within a second, his tongue sweeping through my
mouth as I’m consumed by his minty taste. A taste I’m more than happy to be devoured
by. As he holds me in his loving embrace, I feel his effort and determination to
draw an end to my fretfulness, a simple yet necessary reminder of what we have,
and will always have. Just as I have for him in our time together.
“I’m sorry,” he breathes against my lips and
braces his brow against mine. “I should have woke you and told you. I don’t
want you to worry about me, beautiful; it’s causing you too much stress, a
stress you shouldn't be experiencing when we’re trying…It’s my job to worry
about you.” Eradicating my tears with delicate sweeps of his thumbs, Hayden
exhales a long and steady breath. “Stop it, Samantha, please. Stop over-thinking
it.” Internally, the weakening plaster cracks as a small, reminiscent smile
breaks free. “Today is for us.” His lips claim me once again, sending my world
into a spin. “Come, I have something for you.”
Despite the palpable reluctance towards his
action, his body is drawn from mine but my hands take residence in his clutch.
My arms are soon outstretched in front of me when he takes a lengthy stride
backwards, leading me to the archway.
Smiling, I say, “Okay, but can you give me a
few minutes? I have needs.”
“Ah, yes of course you do,” he grins, the
clutch on my hands easing ever so slightly. As I turn into the hallway and
progress to the bedroom, a swift hand connects with my ass cheek, tearing a
squeal from my throat. “Shit, shower and shave, Mrs. Wentworth.”
Glancing over my shoulder with a raised
eyebrow, I retort, “Hayden, you've seen me in worse circumstances, those choice
of words will not have me blushing any longer.”
“Oh, trust me, beautiful. I know how to make
you blush,” he replies with a roguish air, his ravenous eyes wandering greedily
over my body as though I’m live bait. “And not only in your cheeks either.”
I don’t doubt him for a moment, because the
thought which follows, alongside the many other thoughts of our love life, is enough
to have me blushing alone. The cocky bastard.
****
After taking care of my needs and making myself
presentable, I sift through one of my drawers and retrieve my card and a small
rectangle box tied with a white ribbon. A deep breath is sucked into my lungs;
a weighted groan travels along my steady exhale when I substitute my gift for
the silver photo frame resting on the dresser surface. Tracing over the glass
with my fingertips, my lips twitch then lift into small smile.
Hayden’s
left arm is around my waist; his right clutches my hand against his heart. We’re
completely lost in each other as we have our first dance as husband and wife,
gazing into one another’s eyes as our bubble safeguarded us.
“Together we have no past. No secrets. No demons.
Just the way it should be.”
That day, I vowed to find him in the darkness
and guide him back into the light. Oh, how time can change.
Tears threaten when I set it back in its
rightful place on the dark wood. I tip my head back as I feel gravity beckoning
the salted droplets. I remember a time when I was the strong one, my words of
assurance and fortitude would save us, or words of censure and aggravation
would break us. Yet now, I am the one to be weakened by such trepidation and
foreboding. Hayden often told me he would journey through Hell to keep me safe,
and as of late, he has been doing just that. He’s journeyed through tortured
moments, fears, nightmares and angst, a place he knows all too well, to reel me back.
As I look into his deep, enthralling eyes, I
see a reflection of the strength I once held. A strength that once formed my
foundation. All it takes are simple fragments and shards by enough loss and
heartbreak in such sparse time, for the hardened exterior to become easily
broken, in addition to someone worthy. I’m thankful that the man, who began to
chip away at my exterior, is the man who shields me and stands between me and
harm. Although, the lingering harmful damage which my subconscious issues, is
one he cannot.
I spin on my heel after recovering my gift and
card, when I discover a note on the bed. One word is scripted in Hayden’s elegant
handwriting:
Rooftop
The Paramount had been under a refurbishment.
The rooftop was now a place for relaxation with a moderate size swimming pool
bounded by glass surrounds, and a decking area for communal barbecues framed
with bright flowers and sun loungers. Even the gym had undergone some extensive
refurbishment, which Hayden seems to appreciate deeply, and I, the results.
****
As the French doors slid open and I step onto
the decking, the air catches in my throat. There is not a word willing to be
freed from my mind as I absorb every fine detail that my rapid gaze comes to
rest upon. The sun enhances each detailed effort that Hayden has made. It is as
though I have stepped from my San Francisco home and back onto the balcony of
the 5* hotel in Rome that we resided at on our honeymoon, with the round,
white, intricate wrought-iron table in the heart of the decking, an assortment
of pastries spread upon it. Pink and red roses surround us like vines, while
white petals lay scattered along the flooring.
“Hayden,” my gasp is over shadowed by the acoustic
introduction of Wild Horses reverberating
from his cellphone and I’m instantly flawed by sheer emotion as he catapults me
back to our wedding day. “When…how…?”
He’s standing behind the table after placing
the handset on the surface and rolls a single red rose in his grasp, a shy yet
endearing smile on his handsome face. The dark sapphire shirt unbuttoned at the
collar and showcasing his silver cross chain is tucked into black pants which
rest on his hips. His muscular physique is emphasized by the gleam of his
silver, square belt buckle.
“It’s just like Rome all over again,” I mutter,
stepping along the dainty petals to the heart of the rooftop as the lead begins
to sing about the things that you wanted.
Everything I want is right here, I think to myself, as the card and box in my possession are slowly placed on the edge of the table.
His eyes alight as he prowls around the table,
his fingers lightly caressing the stem of his offering. “Happy first wedding
anniversary, Mrs. Wentworth.”
“Happy first wedding anniversary, Mr.
Wentworth,” I reply.
“You…” I turn to face him as he stops beside. I
accept the flower with an admiring smile. “…Are more beautiful now, than ever.
I thank the heavens every day for leading you to me, and for agreeing to be
mine.” My chin is snared in his tender grasp, my head tipped back. “I love you,”
he adds as his mouth gains proximity to mine, and a chaste kiss lingers on my
lips.
“I love you, too,” I answer before he has
chance to draw himself away from me completely. To my side I blindly seek my
card and gift from amongst the mass of pastries. “Here, I hope you like it,” I
say as my nerves breaks through my voice.
Creases of perplexity form on Hayden’s brow.
“When did you find time to go gift shopping?”
Good question indeed.
Between hiring and
training a new receptionist while Chloe is on maternity leave, and helping
Jessie plan the wedding she has always dreamed of without the snide remarks
from her husband-to-be, I feel as though my feet haven’t touched the ground. I
only just managed to sneak away while cake tasting last week to pick this up.
“I tore myself away from Jessie and a very
delicious lemon cake last week,” I chortle lightly. “Unfortunately, there’s no
refund policy on that, so I really hope you like it.”
The white ribbon shimmers as the light catches
the material when Hayden pulls it free. Removing the narrow lid, he sets it
onto the table beside us before unfolding the tissue paper.
When the content is removed, the box plummets
to the ground. All I can do is stand and smile at his utterly stunned
expression. Mouth open, he studies the window before scouring his focus to me.
I simply nod my head as dark eyebrows lift in
silent question.
Hayden
Once upon a time, the small derisive voice,
which was more of a narcissistic yelling, would have had me questioning the
truth despite the fact of it being held in my hands. Guided by time and resolve,
the sound of his mockery is slowly being masked. The unending words of promise
and surety imparted by Samantha over time was what aided in the voice of my own
belief, of my own confidence. And inner contentment followed.
I have no words to speak right now. Adjusting
my thoughts and overcoming the shock overwhelming my body, takes more than
several moments. When I eventually muster the strength and avert my rapt
attention from between my fingers, back to Samantha, I’m met with a nervous
smile as she tucks a lock of dark auburn hair behind her ear, before splaying
her hand across her abdomen and massaging small, soothing circles.
“We’re having a…?”
“Baby, Hayden,” she nods. “I’m pregnant,” she
ends my beaten and broken sentence with her affirmation and clarity.
The world has stopped spinning; gravity no
longer holds the power to keep my feet planted on the ground. Hastily bending
to retrieve the box which fell to my feet, I place the test back amongst the tissue
paper inside the casing and place it on the edge of the table. Gesturing
forward with my arms, my hands are promptly set on the sides of her face. Our
lips unite after gently drawing her near, before drinking her in my embrace.
Her candy-like, marshmallow scent tickles my senses.
A little over eight months we had been trying
to conceive. Each and every month we would wait on tenterhooks for verification
that our efforts had been effective. Yet each time the dreaded day would come
where we realized they weren't. Samantha would retreat into herself, close
herself off. Almost as though she was mourning the idea and hope of that
particular month being the one we were longing for.
It shredded me internally witnessing her
despairing in that degree. Though what ripped out my heart, was knowing that I
was the one responsible for making her feel that level of disappointment.
“I love you, Samantha Wentworth.”
Never in a lifetime would I now doubt the
sincerity behind her reply. Still, the shadow of uncertainty and trepidation
lingered in her voice, and the shackles of restraint glinted in the ocean of
her eyes.
Rolling her lips over her teeth, she peeks up
at me.
“What’s wrong, beautiful? I thought this was
what we wanted?”
“Yes, it is,” she murmurs with a nod of her
head. “I’m…I…”
“Samantha, what is it?” I hunt her unsure gaze,
clearing her wavy, long tresses away from her oval face and brushing them over
her shoulders before cupping her cheeks again.
Words are finally found; a wall of moisture forms
glassy eyes that stare up at me betraying her inner pain. “I’m scared. And I
just…I can’t take more heartache or disappointment. I…”
“Hey. Stop. Breathe,”––a smile splinters through
as she listens expectantly––“and listen to me. I am right here with you, a
place where I always will be. He or she will be cared for both inside there––”
She stills as my hand slips from her cheek and lightly caresses her abdomen. “––And
out here when it’s time. We won’t even tell anybody, not until you’re ready.”
She frowns, “Really? Don’t you mind?”
“Beautiful,” the arch of her cheekbone is
tenderly traced by my thumb, while an adoring smile kisses my lips. “I want
nothing more than to shout it from this very rooftop right now. But I won’t. No
more stress, Samantha. I mean it. We can do this. You can do this, do you know why?” When she shakes her head,
naïvely, I resume, “Because you’re a diamond. You’re beautiful, Samantha, and a
lifetime of hardship has created and formed so many different tiers that I’m
blessed enough to know and see. You’re the toughest, most precious stone on a
land full of pebbles.”
She hangs her head for a brief moment on a
small snigger. Once I coax her head up with a finger beneath her chin, she’s
beaming at me. “There it is.”
“What is?” she asks.
“The smile I fell in love with almost two years
ago. The smile I lost myself in when we got married. The woman of my dreams,”
massaging her belly, I add, “and the most precious gift she could ever give me.
Now, would you like to light or blow?” I peek down at the cupcake topped with
pink, swirly frosting, a butterfly nestled amongst the sweet, pink perfection, which
rests in the center of the table.
“Can we do it together?”
“Of course.”
A box of matches is pulled from my pants
pocket. I strike one and light the candles’ wick. Samantha looks troubled as I
hold the base of the cake between us, and I watch as her gaze drops to her
belly. I already know what she is thinking, because it’s a topic which I myself
have contemplated many times.
“Nothing will ever replace her, beautiful. I
would never dream of it.”
She nods and sighs, “I know,” before taking a
deep, wounded breath. “Another year gone, yet another year closer to being
together again. Happy birthday, sweetheart.”
“Happy birthday, Rose,” I add and together, we
lightly blow on the flickering golden flame and watch as small strands of smoke
spiral to their end.
After setting the cake back into the heart of
the table, I pull out her seat and gesture for her to sit. Her cellphone is pulled
from the back pocket of her denim pants, before she slips onto the round, cold
iron. The music continues playing from my handset. I compiled a playlist of all
the songs that say it for us, songs which go hand in hand with our memories.
“Would my gorgeous wife care for a fresh glass
of orange juice, as caffeine is no longer on the table?” Taking my seat
opposite, she takes a moment to study the spread laid out before us, absent
coffee. “No pun intended,” I smile then gesture towards the croissants and
fresh fruit.
Carefully watching her when she vacates her
seat, she snatches a pastry then lowers herself into my lap. She tears into the
food with her fingers, and holds a bite size piece between her thumb and middle
finger, when her cell begins rumbling and dancing across the surface.
“Are you going to answer that?” I ask after a
few beats of the vibration interrupting Nina Simone crooning from my speaker.
Jessie’s face and number flashes as we peek
down at Samantha’s screen. “I’m taking the day off from wedding planning. I’m
sure her and Matt can find a way to settle on the chinaware. Today, I am…”
My lips part instinctively as the food between
her agile fingers approaches me. I close my lips around her fingers as she
places it on my tongue, and lick free the remnants of the sweet, buttery taste
on her flesh.
Darkening eyes burn a chasm into my body. I
hear and sight the hitching of her breath before the right side of her lower
lip is caught under her teeth. When she draws her finger from my mouth, I urge
her to continue with a roguish grin between chewing.
“I am celebrating my first wedding anniversary
with no unnecessary disturbances,” she finally finishes.
“I’m liking the sound of that.”
I just manage to swallow when she purrs, “Really?”
Dropping her head, she slants her lips over mine; the warmth of her tongue
dipping and sweeping through my mouth has me growling shamelessly. “Well, you
just wait for what I have in store for you, tonight.”
Really? You tease, as
always. But I would expect it any other way. Well, two can play at this game,
Mrs. Wentworth.
As her fingers trace my lips, clearing the
wetness which coats them, I counter, “And you can do the same, Mrs. Wentworth.”
As my words fall to her ears, she straightens her back and pouts adorably. The look of sheer displeasure on her profile
has me chuckling inwardly.
“You know I hate surprises.”
“I know.”
“So tell me,” I smirk at the tone of her
cajoling.
“Come closer then,” the animation radiating
from her is contagious. I can see the restraint she is mustering to not bounce
up and down on me. “A little closer,” I coax, so she does with a giggle. The
curve of her ear is traced by my tongue, and her body surrenders to a shudder, as
a small groan leaves her lips as I nibble seductively on her lobe. “What’s it
worth?”
She pulls away as though something has burned her. I watch as she studies my expression, and gradually accepts that I'm not going to surrender. With a grin matching my own, her hands sink into my hair, her nails lightly grazing across my scalp as we lose ourselves in each others intent gaze, the bubble around us, slowly building.
Today not only marks our
first wedding anniversary. Today marks another new beginning. A hope that Samantha can free her worries and once again find that inner strength that attracted me to her in the first place. I hate to see the burden of our past ruining her, as it did with me.
From now on, I'll be praying with every bit of strength I
have that this beginning we have been gifted with, unlike us, will not be tainted by our past.
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